The month of April has been chaotic to say the least, but not in a way that has felt impossible. Chaotic in a way that feels necessary. Like, the beliefs and feelings that were holding me back are melting from away from me. Some of it has been painful and some of it has been exciting. All of it has been necessary and just the way Spring is emerging, so is a new me.
I’ve dropped beliefs that have limited me with finances and my professional growth. I’ve released limiting energies that have stunted me in having confidence in myself. All of these beliefs I didn’t even realize were a part of me. They’ve just kind of bubbled up to the surface this month and it’s been a challenge but I’m also so grateful for them showing face. I’ve been able to truly grasp the practice of un-attachment to people, events and outcomes. Something that (as a Virgo/Aries/Cancer) has been extremely difficult for me in life.
There has been a part of me that has completely melted away. No not a part of me…a whole of me. It’s been a process, kind of messy and definitely shaky. But so very necessary.
Today as I start my morning and the house is silent, I am slow to wake up. As I go through my home, I open all of the blinds, and crack open windows for fresh Spring air. I make my morning cup of coffee and intentionally take five minutes to feel connected (to myself, to my home, to source) — and to my coffee (of course).
As I peer out of my back yard window, holding my cup of hot coffee, Sun rays are peering through the trees that shade my home. A family of squirrels that live in my neighbor’s tree are running around playing. A blue jay lands on the bird house in my back yard to grab some breakfast. A family of little brown birds are hopping around playing and more birds are singing their tunes so joyfully from the trees.
In that moment that I took to pause and pay attention — as the scent of coffee filled my head and the sounds of my environment comforted my ears, my consciousness expanded and I actively felt what oneness means.
Oneness is truly understanding, feeling and BEING connected to everything through source. I felt nature and nature felt me. I lived as nature and nature lived as me. I “floated” out of my body and was immersed in the exact same flow of source. There was no separation of me and higher consciousness. No separation of me and the trees. No separation of me and the animals. No separation from the Sun or the wind. We were all tethered and sharing the same stream of life and energy. Colors expanded beyond the spectrum of what I normally see. Waves of light filled my space, and for those few moments, I was exploring both the 3D and higher dimensions.
I practice meditation regularly. I’m experienced in going deep into meditation and “disappearing” for hours at a time. So I’ve experienced this feeling before or something similar. However, this was different. This is the first time I was able to reach this state without meditation. It’s a pivotal experience in this life for me.
It’s kind of amazing when we understand without a doubt of who we are on a soul level. My true wish is that every human would be able to have an experience like I had because it truly shows us the interconnected threads that hold this entire universe together. We all operate under the same life force. Source is you, it’s me, it’s everything and everything IS source.
Blessings,
Sarah
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